Here’s the thing. People. Make. Choices. Hundreds a day, who
knows how many in a lifetime. Some people are satisfied with their choices, and
some people have serious regrets. I have a friend who I greatly admire because
she says that she’s never regretted anything that she’s done in her life. I
think that’s the sign of a seriously secure person (I also think that when I
said admire I meant envy). I wish I could be half as confident with my own choices.
“No one wants to hear about your shitty life.” I heard that
on a TV show once. I forgot the show, but I wrote that down on a sticky note
and stuck it in a random drawer in my room. For a while now, my friends and
family have been hearing a lot about my so-called “shitty life,” host of
regrets, and missed opportunities. It’s not fair and it’s created rifts. Unhappiness and loneliness will
make you do a lot of things that you told yourself you would never do. I don’t
want to be that person.
Officially, the next 365 days are going to be my “Year of
Me” (in my mind anyway). All choices that I think will help me lead a
fulfilling life, allll the time. I want to find a job that I like, and not just
one that I have to endure. I want to help as many people as possible. I want to
take the time to laugh, put my arm around someone, and tell them that I care
about them. I want the choices that I make to create some sort of kick-ass
butterfly effect (also a great movie). I’m not saying I won’t make any choices
that I’ll come to regret (I’m not my friend, and I never will be), but I’ll be
out there, trying to do things that make me happy.
First things first, clean my room, get some pistachio
gelato, and binge watch Graceland season 1, H :)
